This has been a difficult year; the failure of a dream, a business, our home in Anacortes; moving to China for a position that was not as promised; my continued struggles with health and weight and being comfortable with being me. It has not been an easy year. Nor do I see any tangible signs the good times are returning. Yet, somehow, enough is enough. Since returning from China in June, I have done my level best to crawl under a rock and remain there. Not wanting to face life or the world, I have stopped writing and every form of social interaction I can get away from. My self imposed exile has done nothing to improve my mood or situation. I am still over-qualified and un-employed. I remain over-fed and under exercised. I have time to walk and listen, play guitar and write, but I do not. Sometimes I cling to my wife like she’s the last life-ring on a sinking ship, which is grossly unfair. She tries her best to understand and soldiers on, but she really needs me to be the strong one; to be the man she married. So, somehow, enough is enough. For years I have written, preached and believed life is what you make of it; easy enough when you’re rolling in the good times. Now it’s time to for the preacher to be preached and apply the lesson. I don’t know what tomorrow will bring. There are things in life that are simply beyond our control. Learning and acceptance are two different concepts. This blog is about my journey towards that end. I am: Linn Living Large.
I look forward to reading more as you post. And although the "good times" are not returning soon (as we have also discovered) this is the season that so many of us are in at the moment. So we must all try to take in and enjoy what we can out of this moment in life!
ReplyDeleteKeep up the writing!!