I tired of waiting for someday. Not to invoke pop culture, but Lennon’s quote: life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans, is ringing true in my life. Everything is a contingency; I can’t climb mountains because I’m not in shape. We don’t know where to live because we don’t know where I might find work. I can’t get in shape because I can’t afford the club membership because I’m not working.
I struggle to make sense of it all. I’ve always been the make-a-plan guy; write it down, check it off, next. I’ve never been afraid to take life on the chin, to go all-in on my life’s dreams. Now just getting through the day with hope for next week taxes my faith in self and humanity.
This week was that hardest I faced in a long time. Sometimes something happens that you can’t fathom no matter how many times you roll it over in your head. This morning as the shock fades and clarity slips back into my mind, I know I have choice. I can give up or I can go big.
I haven’t got it figured out yet, but another week of sitting and waiting is another hole in my soul. There are only so many some-days in life, and I don’t want to be sitting on the curb when roll is called.
I choose to go big.
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