Face Yourself

One year ago today I made a decision. 

I made a decision to take control of my eating, my weight, my life. I made a decision to have weight loss surgery. 

The decision was a process; years of dieting and frustration, years of slipping further and further from myself, one pound after another. I wanted change. I dreamed of change. It wasn't until I faced the simple truth: I can't do this myself. I need help. 

Enough is enough. We all have our limits. I had to find mine. It's a negative space where you are caught between the dread of your current situation and the fear of the unknown future. 

For me, it all comes down to this present moment. Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow may never be. What can I do right now, today? When I stay in the moment, I find peace. I make the decision before me. It's as simple as cookies or yogurt; next.  

If you want, desire, need change in your life, only you can make the decision. My advice: turn you back on yesterday. Stop worrying about tomorrow. Face yourself. Face your fears. Face today. 

To be honest, to be fair, I'd like to take a moment and thank my wife. Without her love and patience, without her hand to hold and shoulder to cry on, without her irrepressible sense of humor it wouldn't be the same journey. I am eternally grateful for her unconditional love and support. I love you, Michelle.