I don't Want To Miss A Moment

Sometimes late at night I lie there listening to you breathe. I don’t want to wake you, but I don’t want to miss a moment of our time together. I see the world outside and you are where I want to be. There are so many things I would change, roads taken, decisions made. You; you I love.  

One of my best friends is going through a divorce. Another, his wife is ill with cancer. This summer my brother-in-law passed. My heart breaks with sadness and loss. For all our efforts, much of life is beyond our control. You don’t get to choose the time and place. You can’t force someone to love you. You can only take the pieces before you.

For years I lived in limbo. I allowed life to happen all around me; all the while wishing I was in the game. There were moments. There were highs and lows. There was just enough to fool me into thinking it was enough. What if I fail? Fear paralyzes.

Through it all there is a constant. Even when I wouldn’t believe in myself, you believed in me. I may never see what you see in me, but I am eternally grateful for your unconditional love and support.

I can’t imagine my life without you in it.